2018

Hello Dreamwidth/Livejournal/Wordpress (please delete as applicable depending on where you’re reading this) and Happy New Year. I hope you’ve all had a wonderful festive period.

I am currently coming to the end of my festive shenanigans. I’m sitting on ‘s couch watching some Stargate SG1. I’ve been over in California since the 20th and I go home again on the 3rd, back to work on Monday 8th. I’m at that stage of I really don’t want to go home combined with really looking forward to going home and sleeping in my own bed.

But it’s been a wonderful shenanigan-filled fortnight filled with all the things.
On the 21st, we went to the SF Dungeon, the Maritime Museum and riding on a cable car. Sadly I took a tumble that morning so we then had a couple of days of rest, watching movies and going to the cinema.
I was invited to Natalie’s family Christmas which was insane and fun and completely different.
On the 26th we took a gentle 3-mile walk around the John Muir National Monument looking at the awesome sequoia trees and just enjoying the peace and quiet.
After that, I fulfilled a bucket list item, went somewhere that I’ve been trying to get to for 13 years – The Winchester Mystery House and did ALL THE WALKING. We did both tours, up and down and around and around for over 3 hours and holy shit did I hurt but it was SO worth it.
The following day we went to the Monterey Bay Aquarium – using the wheelchair due to serious ow from the previous day… and holy crap there are some seriously fucking rude people out there!
Winchester Mystery House
We were supposed to go whale watching on the 30th but neither of us felt up to it – we’ve both got coughs and colds and I was still hurting. We went on to the beach in Santa Cruz (saw the boardwalk but no vampires) then took a leisurely drive up the PCH and flailing at the pretty scenery. We also drove over the Golden Gate Bridge and up to the Marin headlands. Sadly all the other people also did this so we didn’t get to stop but I still got some amahzing view ā¤
Yesterday was a rest day, watching all the Star Wars and planning 2018's shenanigans.
Today we hit up the California Academy of Science and had all the fun.

Tomorrow I will be sadly doing laundry and packing because on Wednesday I fly home. I land back in Birmingham on Thursday evening and then back into the real world on Friday. I have been thinking about New Years resolutions and stuff but for now, this week's goals are to finish shenanigans, get home safely, get quotes for getting Lotte fixed and register at new doctors.

Here we go! šŸ™‚

A sluggish Sunday

I’m not entirely sure why but whenever I open up the ‘post an entry’ page, I have the strangest urge to start my posts with a David Hewlett style “Hello internets, tis I!” greeting – you’ve seen his vlogs and know what I mean, right?

Let’s see, whats the latest in the Land Of Llama. I did not sleep well last night. Or, at all, really. I went to bed at normal time around 10:30-11:00 or so, gave up and got up around 03:20, was still awake at about 05:30, fell asleep finally just after that and woke up again around 09:00. I’ve been feeling all fuzzy and thick headed all day and yeah my Sunday has been powered by Red Bull.

I spent a lazy morning in bed getting a new layout up here (what do you think of it?), reading blogs and listening to music. I discovered a wonderful playlist on Spotify – yup a 9 hour, 161 song playlist of all 4 seasons worth of soundtrack… What can I say? The show and it’s music has become such a guilty pleasure of mine. I’m about 3/4 of the way through S2 at the moment.
As with all things country music related, I blame Gary Quinn

I tried to take a nap this afternoon but I’m pretty sure it failed. I genuinely don’t know if I fell asleep or not, which was the strangest sensation ever. I felt even fuzzier than I did before I crawled into bed and oh the thumpy head. I dosed it with some caffeine, sugar, chicken pot pie and baked beans then had a lovely soak in a hot bubble bath, reading Poppy Z Brite – Lost Souls and listening to The Life Of Riley.

Now, I’ve taken some painpills and sleeping pills. I’m back on the Nashville playlist. I’m reading a DK Publishing astronomy book called The Planets: The Definitive Visual Guide To Our Solar System. And I’m futzing around on LJ and DW.

How’s your Sunday been?

Yeah, going back to work pretty much killed me this week. However, there have been no disasters and I’m starting to feel like I’m actually getting caught up on things, so there’s that. Hurrah. My routine is getting pretty settled and I’m feeling positive. šŸ™‚

I’m also doing pretty well towards most of my January goals: I avoided the vending machine at work all week, I’ve been drinking at least 1.5l water a day, I only went to Greggs once and I didn’t order in pizza.
I lost 4lb – my weight is down to 207. *cheers*

I also found my fitbit and charger and charged my fitbit and got a baseline of my food and walking over last week. Which means I’ve been able to give myself a goal for the coming week of walking 6050 steps a day or 2.5 miles a day. I’m aiming towards a daily calorie intake of 1300.

I’ve also been writing. As well as that John solo fic, I’ve written like 3k of Jack/Cam and I found and have been editing an old unfinished CW RPS AU fic.

It’s been a good week! šŸ™‚

2017

So 2016 was the year I found my new normal after the last 1/3 of 2015., I got on meds that stabilised me, I found a therapist that really helped me and I’m feeling pretty balanced.

Don’t get me wrong, the year started off disastrously. I attempted suicide. I cut again for the first time in 2 years. I lost a job I loved. My guardian angels have been working overtime to protect me from myself a few points.

But sometimes you have to hit rock bottom in order to come back.

And I have. I’ve found another job. I’m no longer in danger of losing my nest. I had an amazing holiday with my Natalie. I’ve been to some kick ass cons and met some people very important to me. I discovered that some things I used to be terrified of are no longer as they once we’re.

I may not have been to as many gigs and cons as I would have liked. I don’t have any planned for 2017. But there is some semblance of financial stability in the not too distant future and I will be able to start getting out of debt.

So here is to an awesome 2017! May it be filled with love and laughter and good food and amazing people and all of the things that make us happy

An actual update

Hello everyone.

Long time no post, but I’m pleased to be able to say that I’m doing… pretty ok, actually. I still have the odd bad day but no, things are good. I’m back down to the lowest dosage of my mirtazapine, propranolol is now only 10mg as and when needed and I’m completely off the zopiclone.

I started a new job in June and it’s going really well. I’m a ‘general services clerk’ for a local electrical engineering company supporting facilities/premises, finance and legal. It’s mostly just raising purchase orders, placing orders and sorting post but I’m really enjoying it. It’s 08:00-16:30 Mon-Thurs and 08:00-15:30 on a Friday, and it’s only a 15-20 minute drive from home, depending on traffic. It’s a temp job but the contract keeps being rolled over because the company has a recruitment freeze on… currently my contract is til the end of the year.
I’m not overly fond of the girls in the office – very bitchy – but I’m still in touch with the girls (and Minion from IRW.

I’m currently dorking out obsessively over bulletjournals and planners. I can spend hours watching #planwithme videos on youtube, I find them really relaxing – almost as much fun as actually doing it myself!

And in 10 days and 18 hours, I get on a plane that takes me to San Francisco for 2016’s shenanigans šŸ˜€